Oca 15


Yazdan kalma bir günden
Ya da “Çölde Çay ” filminden
Bir sahne var aklımda, oyuncular sanki biziz
Mutsuzuz, ikimiz;
Kimi aşklar hiç bitmezmiş
Bizimkisi bitenlerden
Sevmeye yeteneksiz
İki yabancı
Birlikte ama yalnız
İki yabancıyız
Hani o güneşin batışı
Bizi tanrıya inandırışı
Su an o akşam aklımda
Ama çok zaman önceydi, yaralarımız ağır değildi
Yine de bağışladım ben hepsini
Hem seni, hem de kendimi
O kadar yoktun ki
Yazdan kalma bir günden, ya da “Çölde Çay ” filminden
Benim de sahneler aklımda, seninkilerden farklı ama
N’olur kendini kandırma
Yoktur üstüne senin, güzeli çirkin yapmakta
Suçuysa dünyaya atmakta
Neyin bildin ki değerini
Benimkini bileceksin?
Bunu da tabii mahvedeceksin

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Oca 15

Boşver beni
Mühim değilim
Bu O’nun hikayesi
Çok beyazdı, kir tutardı
Ömrü kelebek kadardı
Mektupları şişedeyken
Bir de bakmış deniz yokmuş
Tek başına dans ederken
Mutsuzluktan sarhoşmuş
Daha 17′ymiş.
Oyundan kalkmak isterken
Kağıtlar dağıtılmış
Bu hava boşluğunda
Artık her şey satılıkmış
Trafikte akmayan
Hep onun seridiyken
Söylediği son şarkı
Elveda Zalim Dünyaymış
Daha 17′miş

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Oca 04

Without You I’m Nothing

Strange infatuation seems to grace the evening tide.
I’ll take it by your side.
Such imagination seems to help the feeling slide.
I’ll take it by your side.
Instant correlation sucks and breeds a pack of lies.
I’ll take it by your side.
Oversaturation curls the skin and tans the hide.
I’ll take it by your side.

tick - tock
tick - tick - tick - tick - tick - tock

I’m unclean, a libertine
And every time you vent your spleen,
I seem to lose the power of speech,
Your slipping slowly from my reach.
You grow me like an evergreen,
You never see the lonely me at all

I…
Take the plan, spin it sideways.
I…
Fall.
Without you, I’m Nothing.
Without you, I’m nothing.
Without you, I’m nothing.
Take the plan, spin it sideways.
Without you, I’m nothing at all.

Where Is My Mind

With your feet in the air and your head on the ground
Try this trick and spin it, yeah
Your head will collapse
If there’s nothing in it
And you’ll ask yourself:
“Where is my mind?
Where is my mind?
Where is my mind?”
Way out in the water, see it swimming.
I was swimming in the Carribean
Animals were hiding behind the rock
Except for little fish
When they told me east is west, trying to talk to me, coy koi
Where is my mind?
Where is my mind?
Where is my mind?
Way out in the water, see it swimming

This Picture

I hold an image of the ashtray girl
As the cigarette burns on my chest
I wrote a poem that described her world
That put my friendship to the test
And late at night
Whilst on all fours
She used to watch me kiss the floor
What’s wrong with this picture?
What’s wrong with this picture?
Farewell the ashtray girl
Forbidden snowflake
Beware this troubled world
Watch out for earthquakes
Goodbye to open sores
To broken semaphore
We know we miss her
We miss her picture
Sometimes it’s faded
Disintegrated
For fear of growing old
Sometimes it’s faded
Assassinated
For fear of growing old
Farewell the ashtray girl
Angelic fruitcake
Beware this troubled world
Control your intake
Goodbye to open sores
Goodbye and furthermore
We know we miss her
We miss her picture
Sometimes it’s faded
Disintegrated
For fear of growing old
Sometimes it’s faded
Assassinated
For fear of growing old
Hang on
Though we try
It’s gone
Hang on
Though we try
It’s gone
Sometimes it’s faded
Disintegrated
For fear of growing old
Sometimes it’s faded
Assassinated
For fear of growing old
Can’t stop growing old

The Bitter End

Since we’re feeling so anesthetised
In our comfort zone
Reminds me of the second time
That i followed you home

We’re running out of alibis
From the second of may
Reminds me of the summer time
On this winter’s day

See you at the bitter end
See you at the bitter end

Every step we take that’s synchronized
Every broken bone
Reminds me of the second time
That i followed you home

You shower me with lullabies
As you’re walking away
Reminds me that it’s killing time
On this fateful day

See you at the bitter end
See you at the bitter end
See you at the bitter end
See you at the bitter end

From the time we intercepted
Feels more like suicide…

See you at the bitter end

Song To Say Goodbye

You are one of God’s mistakes
You crying, tragic waste of skin
I’m well aware of how it aches
And you still won’t let me in
Now I’m breaking down your door
To try and save your swollen face
Though I don’t like you anymore
You lying, trying waste of space

Before our innocence was lost
You were always one of those
Blessed with lucky sevens
And a voice that made me cry
My Oh My

You were mother nature’s son
Someone to whom I could relate
Your needle and your damage done
Remains a sordid twist of fate
Now I’m trying to wake you up
To pull you from the liquid sky
‘Cause if I don’t we’ll both end up
With just your songs to say goodbye
My Oh My

A song to say goodbye
A song to say goodbye
A song to say

Before our innocence was lost
You were always one of those
Blessed with lucky sevens
And a voice that made me cry

It’s a song to say goodbye

 

written by Napster

Oca 04

Fat Lip

Storming through the party like my name was el ninio
When i’m handgun out drinking in the back of an el camino
As a kid, i was a skid and no one knew me by name.
I trashed my own house party cause no body came.

I know i’m not the one you thought you knew back in high school
Never going, ever showing up when we had to.
Is it attention that we crave don’t tell us to behave,
I’m sick of always hearing act your age.

I don’t want to waste my time
And become a casualty of society.
I’ll never fall in line
Become a victim of your conformity
And back down.

Because you don’t
Know us at all we laugh when old people fall.
But what would you expect with a conscience so small.
Heavy metal and mullets it’s how we were raised.
Maiden and priest were the gods that we praised

Cause we like having fun at other peoples expense and,
Cutting people down is just a minor offence then,
It’s none of your concern, i guess i’ll never learn.
I’m sick of being told to wait my turn.

I don’t want to waste my time
And become a casualty of society.
I’ll never fall in line
Become a victim of your conformity
And back down.

Don’t count on me, to let you know when.
Don’t count on me, i’ll do it again.
Don’t count on me, it’s the point you’re missing.
Don’t count on me, cause i’m not listening.

Well i’m a no goodnick lower middle class brat,
Back packed and i don’t give a shit about nothing.
You be standing on the corner talking all that kufuffin.
But you don’t make sense from all the gas you be huffing.
Then if the egg don’t stain you’ll be ringing off the hook,
You’re on the hit list wanted in the telephone book.
I like songs with distortion, to drink in proportion.
The doctor said my mom should have had an abortion.

I don’t want to waste my time
And become a casualty of society.
I’ll never fall in line
Become a victim of your conformity
And back down.
Waste my time with them
Casualty of society.
Waste my time again,
Victim of your conformity
And back down.

In Too Deep

The faster we’re falling,
We’re stopping and stalling.
We’re running in circles again
Just as things we’re looking up
You said it wasn’t good enough.
But still we’re trying one more time.

Maybe we’re just trying to hard.
When really it’s closer than it is too far

Cause i’m in too deep, and i’m trying to keep,
Up above in my head, instead of going under.
Cause i’m in too deep, and i’m trying to keep,
Up above in my head, instead of going under.
Instead of going under.

Seems like each time
I’m with you i loose my mind,
Because i’m bending over backwards to relate.
It’s one thing to complain
But when you’re driving me insane
Well then i think it’s time that we took a break.

Maybe we’re just trying to hard.
When really it’s closer than it is too far

Cause i’m in too deep, and i’m trying to keep,
Up above in my head, instead of going under.
Cause i’m in too deep, and i’m trying to keep,
Up above in my head, instead of going under.
Instead of going under.
Instead of going under.

I can’t sit back and wonder why.
It took so long for this to die.
And i hate it when you fake it.
You can’t hide it you might as well embrace it.
So believe me it’s not easy.
It seems that something’s telling me,

Cause i’m in too deep, and i’m trying to keep,
Up above in my head, instead of going under.
Cause i’m in too deep, and i’m trying to keep,
Up above in my head, instead of going under.
Instead of going under.
Instead of going under.

Instead of going under again.
Instead of going under.
Instead of going under again.
Instead of going under again.

Motivation

What’s the difference of never knowing at all?
When every step i take is always too small.
Maybe it’s just something i can’t admit but lately,
I feel like i don’t give a shit.

Motivation such an aggravation,
Accusations don’t know how to take them.
Inspiration’s getting hard to fake it.
Concentration’s never hard to brake it.
Situation never what you want it to be.

What’s the point of never making mistakes?
Self-indulgence is such a hard habit to brake.
It’s all just a waste of time in the end.
I don’t care so why should i even pretend.

Motivation such an aggravation,
Accusations don’t know how to take them.
Inspiration’s getting hard to fake it.
Concentration’s never hard to brake it.
Situation never what you want it.

Nothing’s new, everything’s the same.
It keeps on dragging me down, it’s getting kind of lame.
I’m falling further behind, there’s nothing to explain.
No matter what you say nothing ‘s gonna change my mind.

Can’t pretend on doubt until the end.
It seems like leaving friends has become
This years trend and though i can’t pretend.
It’s not the same but who’s to blame,
For all those stupid things i never said.

Motivation such an aggravation,
Accusations don’t know how to take them.
Inspiration’s getting hard to fake it.
Concentration’s never hard to brake it.
Situation never what you want it to be.

Motivation such an aggravation,
Accusations don’t know how to take them.
Inspiration’s getting hard to fake it.
Concentration’s never hard to brake it.
Situation never what you want it to be.

Never what you want it to be.
Never what you want it to be.

Over My Head

They wanna try and build me up
So they can tear me down
I wish that i could be back there
But i’m writing here right now

They’ve taken everything that i’ve had to give and
They say it’s over but man i’m still here livin
I don’t know what to do, i think that maybe

I’m in over my head
Stuck in the red
Somethin they said
Makes me think that i’m in over my head
Over my head
Over my head

I’ve got to get away from here
And it couldn’t be too soon
Cuz i see the stars are here with me
Like rockets to the moon

You take me everywhere that i’ve never been and
Show me the meaning of what life had to give and
I don’t know what to say, i think that maybe

I’m in over my head
Lyin in her bed
Somethin she said
Makes me think that i’m in over my head
Over my head
Over my head

They’ve taken everything that i’ve had to give and
They say it’s over but man i’m still here livin
I don’t know what to do, i think that maybe

I’m in over my head
Stuck in the red
Somethin they said
Makes me think that i’m in over my head
Over my head
Over my head
I’m in over my head
I’m in over my head
I’m in over my head
I’m in over my head

Pieces

I tried to be perfect but nothing was worth it
I don’t believe it makes me real
I thought it’d be easy but no one believes me
I meant all the things i said

If you believe it’s in my soul
I’d say all the words that i know
Just to see if it would show
That i’m trying to let you know
That i’m better off on my own

This place is so empty
My thoughts are so tempting
I don’t know how it got so bad
Sometimes it’s so crazy that nothing can save me
But it’s the only thing that i have

If you believe it’s in my soul
I’d say all the words that i know
Just to see if it would show
That i’m trying to let you know
That i’m better off on my own

I tried to be perfect it just wasn’t worth it
Nothing could ever be so wrong
It’s hard to believe me
It never gets easy
I guess i knew that all along

If you believe it’s in my soul
I’d say all the words that i know
Just to see if it would show
That i’m trying to let you know
That i’m better off on my own

Still Waiting

So am i still waiting for this world to stop hating.
Can’t find a good reason, can’t find hope to believe in.
Drop dead a bullet to my head
Your words are like a gun in hand.
You can’t change the state of the nation we just need
Some motivation.
These eyes have seen no conviction,
Just lies and more contradiction.
So tell me what would you say,
I’d say it’s time to late.
So am i still waiting for this world to stop hating.
Can’t find a good reason, can’t find hope to believe in.
Ignorance and understanding.
We’re the first ones to jump in line.
Out of step for what we believe in but who’s left to stop the bleeding.
How far will we take this,
It’s not hard to see through the fakeness.
So tell me what would you say,
I’d say it’s time to late.
So am i still waiting for this world to stop hating.
Can’t find a good reason, can’t find hope to believe
This can’t last forever
Time won’t make things better
I feel so alone,
Can’t help myself
No one knows if this is worthless
Tell me.
What have we done with a war that can’t be won.
This can’t be real cause i don’t know what to feel.
So am i still waiting for this world to stop hating.
Can’t find a good reason, can’t find hope to believe.
So am i still waiting for this world to stop hating.
Can’t find a good reason, can’t find hope to believe.

 

written by Napster

Oca 04

A Dangerous Mind

I’m searching for answers
Cause something is not right.
I follow the sings,
I’m close to the fire.

I fear that soon you’ll reveal
Your dangerous mind.

It’s in your eyes, what’s on your mind.
I fear your smile and the promise inside.
It’s in your eyes, what’s on your mind.
I fear your presence, i’m frozen inside.

I’m searching for answers
Not questioned before.
The curse of awareness,
There’s no peace of mind.
As your true colours show
A dangerous sign.

It’s in your eyes, what’s on your mind.
I see the truth that you’ve buried inside.
It’s in your eyes, what’s on your mind.
There is no mercy, just anger i find.

I just hace to know, while i still have time.
Do i have to run, or hide away from you?

It’s in your eyes, what’s on your mind.
I see the truth that you’ve buried inside.
It’s in your eyes, what’s on your mind.
There is no mercy, just anger i find

Angels

Sparkling angel i believes
You were my saviour in my time of need
Blinded by faith i couldn’t hear
All the whispers, the warnings so clear
I see the angels
I’ll lead them to your door
There’s no escape now
No mercy no more
No remorse cause i still remember
The smile when you tore me apart

Chorus:
You took my heart
Deceived me right from the start
You showed me dreams
I wished they would turn into real
You broke the promise and made me realize
It was all just a lie

Sparkling angel, i couldn’t see
Your dark intentions, your feelings for me
Fallen angel, tell me why?
What is the reason, the thorn in your eye?
I see the angels
I’ll lead them to your door
There’s no escape now
No mercy no more
No remorse cause i still remember
The smile when you tore me apart

Repeat chorus
Could have been forever
Now we have reached the end

This world may have failed you
It doesn’t give you reason why
You could have chosen a different path

The smile when you tore me apart

Bittersweet

If i tell you
Will you listen?
Will you stay?
Will you be here forever?
Never go away?
Never thought things would change, hold me tight
Please don’t say again that you have to go

A bitter thought
I had it all
But i just let it go
Hold your silence
It’s so violent since you’re gone

All my thoughts are with you forever
’till the day we’ll be back together
I will be waiting for you

If i had told you
You would’ve listened
You had stayed
You would be here forever
Never went away

It would never have been the same
All the time would have been in vain
Cause you had to go

The sweetest thought
Had it all
Cause i did let you go
All our moments keep me warm
When you’re gone

All my thoughts are with you forever
’till the day we’ll be back together
I will be waiting for you

Ice Queen

When leaves have fallen
And skies turned into grey.
The night keeps on closing in on the day
A nightingale sings his song of farewell
You better hide for her freezing hell

On cold wings she’s coming
You better keep moving
For warmth, you’ll be longing
Come on just feel it
Don’t you see it?
You better believe it.

When she embraces
Your heart turns to stone
She comes at night when you are all alone
And when she whispers
Your blood shall run cold
You better hide before she finds you

Whenever she is raging
She takes all life away
Haven’t you seen?
Haven’t you seen?
The ruins of our world

She covers the earth with a breathtaking cloak
The sun awakes and melts it away
The world now opens its eyes and sees
The dawning of a new day

Whenever she is raging
She takes all life away
Haven’t you seen?
Haven’t you seen?
The ruins of our world

Stand My Ground

I can see
When you stay low
Nothing happens
Does it feel right?
Late at night
Things i thought i’d put behind me
Haunt my mind

I just know there’s no escape now
Once it sets it’s eyes on you
But i wont run
Have to stare it in the eyes

Stand my ground
I won’t give in
No more denying
I’ve gotta face it
Won’t close my eyes and hide the truth inside
If i don’t make it, someone else will
Stand my ground

It’s all around
Getting stronger, coming closer into my world
I can feel that it’s time for me to face it
Can i take it?

Though this might just be the ending
Of the life i held so dear
But i won’t run
There’s no turning back from here

Stand my ground
I won’t give in
No more denying
I’ve gotta face it
Won’t close my eyes and hide the truth inside
If i don’t make it, someone else will
Stand my ground

All i know for sure is that i’m trying
I will always stand my ground

Stand my ground
I won’t give in, (i won’t give in)
I won’t give up, (i won’t give up)
No more denying (ahh-hhhh)
I’ve gotta face it
Won’t close my eyes and hide the truth inside
If i don’t make it, someone else will

Stand my ground
I won’t give in
No more denying
I’ve gotta face it
Won’t close my eyes and hide the truth inside
If i don’t make it, someone else will
Stand my ground

What Have You Done

What have you done now

I know i’d better stop trying
You know that there’s no denying
I won’t show mercy on you now

I know i should stop believing
I know that there’s no retrieving
It’s over now
What have you done

What have you done now

I, i’ve been waiting for someone like you
But now you are slipping away
What have you done now
Why, why does fate make us suffer
There’s a curse between us
Between me and you

What have you done x4
What have you done now
What have you done x4
What have you done now

Would you mind if i killed you
Would you mind if i tried to
Cause you have turned into my worst enemy
You carry hate that i feel
It’s over now
What have you done

What have you done now

I, i’ve been waiting for someone like you
But now you are slipping away
What have you done now
Why, why does fate make us suffer
There’s a curse between us
Between me and you

What have you done x4
What have you done now
What have you done x4
What have you done now

I will not fall
Won’t let it go
We will be free
When it ends

I, i’ve been waiting for someone like you
But now you are slipping away
What have you done now
Why, why does fate make us suffer
There’s a curse between us
Between me and you
X2

Memories

In this world you tried
Not leaving me alone behind.
There’s no other way.
I prayed to the gods let him stay.
The memories ease the pain inside,
Now i know why.

All of my memories keep you near.
In silent moments imagine you here.
All of my memories keep you near.
Your silent whispers, silent tears.

Made me promise i’d try
To find my way back in this life.
I hope there is a way
To give me a sign you’re ok.
Reminds me again it’s worth it all
So i can go on.

All of my memories keep you near.
In silent moments imagine you here.
All of my memories keep you near.
Your silent whispers, silent tears.

Together in all these memories
I see your smile.
All the memories i hold dear.
Darling, you know i love you
Till the end of time.

All of my memories keep you near.
In silent moments imagine you here.
All of my memories keep you near.
Your silent whispers, silent tears.

written by Napster

Oca 04

Saatim yok tam olarak bilemem
Biraz bira, biraz sarap önceydi
Nasıl oluyor; vakit bir türlü geçmezken
Yillar, hayatlar geçiyor?
Kayıp bir bavul gibiyim havaalanında
Ya da boş bir yüzme havuzu sonbaharda
Çok mu ayıp hala mutluluk istemek?
Neyse zaten hiç halim yok
Bugün benim doğum günüm
Hem sarhoşum, hem yastayım
Bir bar taburesi üstünde
Babamın öldüğü yaştayım
Bugün benim doğum günüm
Kelimeler büyüyor ağzımda
Bildigim bütün hayatlar
Paramparça
Takatim yok, yine de telefona sarıldım
Son bir özür için tüm sevdiğim kadınlardan
Aradım, mesajlar çıktı kapattım
Telesekretere konuşamayanlardanım
Bugün benim doğum günüm

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Oca 04

Kır evinin verandasında bir rüzgar gülüne rastladım
İnsanmışcasına konuşmaya başladım
Dedim, benim kadar yalnızsan
Tek gecelik bir aşksan
Omuzlarına abanan
Bir anıdan kaçıyorsan
Dibe vurduysan yada hala düşüyorsan
Bir yaz günü
Hiç bu kadar üşüdün mü?
Rüzgar gülü
Hiç ölümü düşündün mü?
Hayalimdeki adsız kadın
Sanki ağzımda tadın
Eminim ki sen de hep kendini aradın
Evimin yolu beni unutmuş otellerin soğukluğunda…
Tüm bu garip duygular
Bir tür iç kanama

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